Wish Everything Would Come to An End
Wish everything would be forever.
Wish everything would come to an end.
These are two of my orientations to the world.
The first one seems rather common and banal.
But I was wondering how I got the latter orientation.
A possible answer would be that subconsciously I do know how lazy I am, how depraved I am. And if everything would be forever and would last endlessly, I must do nothing but put off everything. An idea of stay forever and eternal makes me hesitant and indecisive.
Everything should come to an end.
Our lives should come to an end.
And the shorter, the better.